Often I feel this feeling

Lately, I'm questioning so many things about me. There are a lot of things that I want in my life, but I haven't achieved them yet. Idk when will I have those things but it's not easy. It's not only money, but it's actually living, not just revenue, but a lot of things.

What do I want from life?

It's pretty clear it's not just money. I want experiences, friendships, relationships, adventures (like solo travelling, skydiving, and many more), peace, and joy. I know my worth is not tied to my outcomes, but I just want to feel existent without the feeling of immediate performance. I just want to enjoy. I just want to live in peace. Money is not the goal, but money can help in giving me some sort of happiness - it can help, but true happiness comes from inside, not from bank balance.

Am I living the kind of life that I want?

I think yes, not because I achieved whatever I want, but I think that's the point of life. I mean, I can't solve all the problems I have, but I can learn to live with them. I feel alive. I feel emotions when I write these things, when I talk to humans, when I'm not in charge of something, when I'm just me. I'm living my life, but if you ask me, would I want to live like this my whole life? My answer will be NO.

I think I can write a LOT, but not yet.